It's been a very long time since I last posted on this blog. But I've been feeling very nostalgic lately, with my 17th birthday coming up, and you know how all writers have to write when they are nostalgic or in any other way any kind of emotional.
When I was little, I never once thought I'd see the day when I was literally dreading a birthday. But here I am, all depressed because I cannot stay 16 for the rest of my life.
Being 16 was the best thing that ever happened to me.
It started out rough. Really rough. BUt it got so much better!!
In the beginning of the year, my first boyfriend broke up with me...and I thought I would never be able to look at another boy again.
So I didn't.
Instead, I looked at a guy...not quite a man, but not a boy anymore, either. He was cute, he was sweet, he was considerate, thoughtful, and my best friend. Well, my best guy friend, and I was so thankful for that. Little did I know he believed in love at first sight because it had happened to him...because of me.
To hear him tell the story, you'd think I was some fairy tale princess with the beauty to steal everyone's heart, enchanting you the moment you looked into my eyes.
I don't think of it that way.
I was in the mud. I had crashed and burned, I had choked, I was done. Ready to give up. I mean, you remember that post I wrote, right? (If not, here is the link.)Anyway, Christian came along, and with his amazing heart couldn't help but want to help me back on my feet again. So he picked me up, cleaned me off, told me he loved me, and taught me to love and trust again. Which...is a very hard thing to do for me. You burn me once, I might give you a second chance. Twice, and you're out for good.
I've learned so much in other departments as well. Not only love and trust, but so many other things. Living. I mean, really living. Being thankful. Letting new things open up in your life. Standing up for yourself and others. Overcoming fear to be true to yourself. Overcoming a stereotype, even if it meant losing those I considered friends at the time.
I have a lot of people to thank for that. my boyfriend, My step mom, my daddy, my friends. My real friends. So thank you all.