I think I'm becoming so fearless...that it scares me.
I've never been happier in my life. Ever.
On top of learning to be fearless, I've been learning how to be free. Free from the rules and regulations and religion that used to enslave me. Its taken some pain and some people accusing me of being 'loose' and 'sinning', but I'm free. They told me I'd be miserable.
But I've never been happier.I've never felt more free.
And ever since I've met the man of my dreams, its only gotten better. He's helped teach me how to be fearless. How to not care what people think, because his opinion of me is the only one that matters, and his opinion of me is the highest :)
And having no fear of anything kind of scares me sometimes.
But its better than my wildest dreams. I can be me, with no reserve. I can live fully, with no fear of people shunning me because I'm different. No, this world is different. I can be me...and no one will judge, make assumptions, or laugh at me. The fashions are different...and I can choose which one I will follow.
I can look however I want to, I can talk the way I want,I can act the way I want, and I can have the friends I want. No more pressures from anyone to follow the 'standard' or that I might go to hell for this.
No, I'm free from that now.
And its truly liberating to be me...finally.

This morning my boyfriend surprised me with an early Christmas gift. A bracelet, with real diamonds on it. I love it.they don't look real at first, but they are. And I love my boyfried. The last one didn't turn out to well...cheating on me and all. But now...I know what real love is. And I'm ready to stay with him forever.

I'm going to try one more time.
I'm going to try to write, like I've always tried.
It's failed in the past. I've bombed it. I'll blog for a few months, and then no one will read, no one enjoys it. My style of writing is a little odd sometimes. You have to be ready to follow my ADD 'rabbit trails.'
Occasionally I might put up a chapter of a book I'm writing.
But maybe I should give up on that too.
There is a drive inside me to write...to never stop writing...but what I write never works. It never flows.
So I guess here is yet another try at a blog. After about 3 fails.
So here goes.